halloween

so... those who know me, know i am not a fan. must bring me back to the time i was a clown in a parade in La Ronge Saskatchewan. i got all dressed up. i looked awesome. i cried. people laughed at me. they were looking at me and laughing. i am not sure i ever got over it, i was the exact age my kids are now.  i have no interest in dressing up. at all. but as an adult i love a few things about halloween. 

i love the excitement in my kids faces as they prepare to dress up. i loved the build up to today. i loved carving pumpkins with them. i loved a few weeks back going to the field to pick them with our family and cousins. i loved sticking our hands in the pumpkins and feeling the slime on our hands and cleaning the seeds. i loved leaving the door to the oven open as we roasted them today so that we didn't forget about them in the oven. i loved telling the kids how many times prior to today that i had left them in the oven roasting and forgot about them and burned them.... SO bad the smoke detector had gone off. i loved that today, i heard the seeds roasting. they were dancing on the pan. making popping sounds and actually moving. i had never noticed that before. i was present in the kitchen. i loved that!

i loved that today our pumpkin seeds turned out the best they had ever tasted.

i loved that today my kids were not scared to go trick-or-treating, that they remembered the neighbourhood houses that had scarey things that scared them in years past. and i loved that today they went to bed and i ate my old favorite treats. don't worry, they won't notice. they have a HUGE stash. they are 7 years old now and they can carry a lot of treats in their pillowcases. 

now as i sit here typing this, i know how sick my mom and dad must have been, when i was sleeping in my bed on halloween night when i was 7.

i had a great night with my kids. i love them, so much, and it is not because they brought me chocolate.

xoxo

Comments

[Helen Ell]

I am so excited to read that there is actually someone else who roasts pumkin seeds!! I am nearly brought to tears every Nov.1st when I see all those beautiful pumpkins laying smashed on the city streets. All those seeds gone to waste,not to mention the PIES! Thanks Michelle, we could be related!!!!